Reaching Out

I wish I can reach out to you. Although you may have thought otherwise, there are people out there that have sensed how you've felt for a long time now. I've sensed how you've felt for a long time now and can relate to how you feel. It's not just you that feels this way, but I cannot tell you that. It's not within my power to reach out to you anymore. It hurts so much to know that you've been hurting for so long and yet I am powerless to do anything about it. 

I will try and write my last Missteps in Life entry later. I am tired of how I feel and now, knowing that one of my concerns for you has materialized has made whatever I have felt for the last year trivial compared to how powerless I feel now. 

Wife Admits to an Unloving Marriage. After Reading the Article, You'll Sympathize With the Husband

The lady to your right is the lady in question. No, I am not being a misogynist, read the article and judge for yourself. Here's a snippet:

For me, the sense of being special to Hal faded away just as it did with previous boyfriends. I became obsessed with agony columns, poring over letters talking of boring marriages and the temptation of affairs and willing just one agony aunt to advise someone to run off with a lover.

I think I see a pattern here. She falls head over heals for whoever is the lust of the moment. After some time, her feelings fade away and she seeks out that same feeling that she got at the beginning of all her relationships. However, leaving her husband will do her no good. She'll find another man, fall head over heals for him, but sooner or later those feelings will fade away again and she'll be back to square one all over again.

It really is selfish of her to be concerned with only how she feels. What about how her husband feels? It may not even be the sex perhaps but the husband should still deserve some emotional companionship, dare I say love? According to her, he has been a "good man, a great dad." Shouldn't at the very least she treat him with respect rather than carrying on relationships with other men?

Now I'm a fairly young guy but I assume that most relationships do in fact "fade out." However, are there not other bonds that keep relationships together, that keep the love strong? I would think your initial physical attraction may fade somewhat but that is replaced with feelings of love and affection, among many feelings.

Keeping a relationship together may be a very difficult thing to do. But the effort and love that is put into it could make it a very rewarding endeavor. Good relationships have their peaks and valleys. The effort should be put into the valleys; the peaks take care of themselves. If you put the effort into doing what will make your partner happy, including the communication necessary to find out what that truly is, then the returns will speak for themselves. Love is never wasted.

Law School Drama

LoL. FIGHT!

Instant update! Two girls caught in a verbal SMACKDOWN in the law school library. We take you live to the scene:

In the blue corner we have Girl #1, at 5'4" and weighing in at 120 lbs. with shoulder length brown hair tied in a ponytail fashion. And in the red corner we have Girl #2, at 5'4" and weighing in at 110 lbs. with black, shoulder length hair and glasses. Oh my goodness ladies and gentlemen, they are face to face, eye to eye and ready to rumble.

Girl #1: Shhhsh, you're in a library.

Girl #2: Hold on, I'll call you back. :: HANGS UP ::

Girl #2: What did you just say? Who are you to tell me what to do? I have family problems right now.

Girl #1: You're talking so loud that your voice is echoing through the hallways. Take the conversation outside. There are signs posted all over the library telling you not to use the phone. Either take your conversation someplace else or shut the phone up. :: STARE DOWN ::

Girl #2: You are seriously a bitch. :: STARE DOWN ::

Ladies and gentlemen, this verbal slugfest is getting ugly. Girl #1 is getting back to her seat in the library when, oh no, Girl #2 has the gumption to follow Girl #1 to her seat! Lets take you back live to the action!

Girl #2 (visibly agitated): You know, really, you are seriously a bitch! :: STARE DOWN ::

Girl #1 (visibly agitated/shaken): :: Smiles ::

:: Girl #2 leaves ::

Wow! 1Ls. Lets get the post fight interview with the ladies, shall we?

Girl #1: I can't believe what she did. Most people when I tell them to keep it down, they will instantly realize that they are on the phone and apologize. She had to shut her phone off and give me all this attitude. Then she followed me back to my seat and call me a bitch.

Me: It's ok. It's not worth it at all. Hey, us law students are all type As anyway!

Girl #1: Heh. I would seriously like to see her act like that when she's with a partner.

Unfortunately, Girl #2 is with her crew right now and we are unable to get you her post-fight reaction. However, if we can get you her comments, we will be sure to post an update. When you've been in the library long enough as I have, you get to see everything. From janitors surfing library computers for ghetto porn to this, the law school library is a proverbial jungle.

We take you back to your regularly scheduled programing. Thank you for tuning in.

Overblown, Overhyped, Overreacted

Okayyyyy. Yea, about that last post, I think I overreacted. It just felt very odd that someone you trusted and cared about who pretty much did a 180 on you and is now within earshot of you yet acts as if she doesn't even know you. 

I'll carry my scars with greater restraint. I'll have to since I have no where else to go to study =)

Trapped in Turmoil

Lets cut the bull, I don't know what to do. My sanctuary has been breached and now I don't know what to do. Like a tumultuous fire creeping down a mountain, misery is creeping closer and closer and I am trapped and cannot escape. I don't know how to escape. The world is shining through the windows that are surrounding me, a world that once allowed me to escape the misery but escape now I cannot. Can my smile hide the turmoil that is surrounding my mind? Can my smile hide the misery creeping into my heart? My sanctuary has been breached by piercing eyes and now I don't know what to do. 

What can I do?

My Top 5

1. Melissa Theuriau. Head and shoulders above the rest. Mademoiselle Theuriau is beautiful, smart, classy, and is the gold standard among newscasters. 

2. Emmy Rossum. Actress, singer, cute. She's got a great smile and seems really down to earth. 

3. Eva Green. Can't go wrong with a Bond Girl right? She's a good actress and there's just something about her sultry looks that's very striking. Maybe its because I have a soft spot for goth girls but Eva Green's fashion is very gothic-esk.

4. Natalie Glebova. Miss Universe 2005, need I say more? Well, I will say more because she is more than just Miss Universe 2005. She can play the piano, has promoted charitable causes worldwide, and I can't fault her for liking Tennis. 

  

5. Julianne Hough. What's not to like? She's talented, vivacious, and always has a great smile. C'mon, she's a fellow milk connoisseur too! 

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Honorable Mention

Yoon Eun Hye. She cute, funny, and energetic. Her role in Goong was perfectly played and was really adorable. However, minus points considering every Korean actress gets plastic surgery and the fact that she is a little too thin. Girls with some meat on their bones = ^_^

Cat Tien. Ok, so she's talented, got a great smile, and she's got meat on her bones, so why isn't she in my Top 5? I could have sworn she got a slight nose job (but I am not sure so don't quote me on this) and well...she's got a passing resemblance to my aunt. Just barely but still enough for me to think twice. 

Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Yes, I know she's a cartoon character, that's exactly why she is not in my Top 5. However, hear me out. Beauty and the Beast was the first Disney movie I saw and it blew my 5-year-old (I think I was five) mind away! She's smart, adventurous, and is a strong girl, capable of handling herself. 

Ashley Tisdale of The Suite Life of Zack & Cody and High School Musical fame (don't ask why I know). She's cute. However, I don't really like her music. But what's the real downer is that most of her fans are 13 and under. I feel really creep watching the same music video that millions of little girls dance to. Let me repeat that, DANCE TO. Parents, where are you??

Sophie Marceau. Another Bond girl eh? Her role as Elektra King in The World is Not Enough was what saved that movie. And I'm only talking about the acting. Add in her sultry looks and you have a dynamite combo! She's kind of older now though and I think the French stereotype of the chain smoking French woman has finally caught up to her (many apologies if she really doesn't smoke). 

Same Mistake

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Much like how this entry is wrapped by two positive (although somewhat strange) entries, once you peal away the smile, the enthusiasm, the eccentricity and the bravado, what you have left of me is this. Sometimes I feel as if its all a charade.